And the apartment hunting officially starts

I had a very full day earlier looking at condominium units and apartments that would possibly be our next home. It’s ironic that my father has 3 houses and yet he couldn’t live in any one of them. Sad to say, he’s at the mercy of my mother who has all houses under her name.

One problem that I’m encountering is the fact that we need a car that can house 2 cars. As I’ve said a couple of days ago, a lot of things are going on in my mind and one of them is to sell my car. But of course, I have to keep in mind my accessibility.

Proximity to our individual workplaces is also a concern because we work in two different parts of the city. He works in the heart of the university belt in Manila and I work in Taguig. We have to make sure that our routes would be not much of a problem and that we have to be in a place where flooding would not be much of an issue wherever which way we go.

As far as the monthly rental is concerned, well, it’s an additional expense of course. We’ll work it out somehow.

Apartment hunting is tiring and stressful. I just hope this ends soon.

The Big Fight

And yeah it happened…the big fight.

It was supposed to be my first night in the night shift. I decided not to come to work because of the fight that ensued between my parents and between me and my mother. It’s nothing unusual really but this time, it’s all about digging the garbage of the past and we didn’t come up with anything positive out of it. What do you expect? Garbage is garbage.

I think the inevitable has come. My father and I will have to leave. Tomorrow will be the start of my search for a place for us to move in. I know it’s never going to be easy because I have to consider my father’s route and his accessibility. I started packing my stuff earlier.

I can only wish and pray that my mother would open up her heart to forgive the people who hurt her. I cannot understand why she cannot move on. For someone who’s already sick, I cannot believe how stone-cold her heart can be.

I don’t know what the future holds but I can only pray that things will be better for everyone soon. There’s not just ourselves to deal with – there are the minor kids back in the US and Dexter. Their welfare should be looked into more than anybody else’s.

And I pray that I’ll be able to come through challenge. I know He will help me through this.

Another day away from home

We’ve decided to extend our stay ’til tomorrow in the hotel where we stayed in last night. Things are definitely not looking good as we went home to check on how things are. My parents aren’t talking. I’m not talking to my Mom. You can feel the tension in the house – it’s something that my father, or anyone for that matter, should be experiencing.

I can only wish for a great ending to this saga. I’ve been under a lot of stress lately and I don’t need another stressful moment at this point. But since I’m already there, all I can do is pray and rely on emotional and moral support from the people I trust so that I could do the same for my Dad and the rest of the family.

There are things that you really cannot plan. And this is just one of those moments. Like I always believe in, this will soon pass.

Sunday Stealing: The Majorly Personal Meme Part 2

Today we ripped this meme off a blog that is written by a group of high school students. The blog is called Eternal Fireworks. The writers are: Michael, Kynan, Alex, Kenny, Chris, Leo, Shelley, Athy, Bam, Tina, and Bnita. There is no statement as to where it came from. But, it was probably stolen there as well. So, of course, that will be as far as we go. Tracing back our theft’s thieves might take some time. It is a long meme and we shall do it in parts. Link back to us at Sunday Stealing!

21. If you were to live your life without your best friend, what would change?
** I’ll probably be grumpy again.

22. Tell us about a era of your life that you really miss.
** The period that I was independent in Canada. It tested my resiliency, patience and determination to actually prove that I can make it on my own.

23. Have you ever been betrayed by someone that came as a complete surprise? Without revealing the person, if yes, tell us about it.
** Just recently this happened and I wouldn’t want to go into details anymore. It was stressful as it was.

24. Do you ever think that is a good idea to hide your feelings?
** There are times when it’s needed but I would rather that me or the other person would not hold back because I wouldn’t want to ask myself the dreaded “what if?” question. Spill it out!

25. Tell us about your favorite year when you were a student.
** It was during the time that I was in law school. It was challenging yet I had fun because I really didn’t see it as a burden.

25. When was the last time you were in a very good mood? What caused it?
** I got to rediscover a friendship with a certain person that hopefully would not need to be rediscovered for the nth time.

26. Have you ever had a romantic relationship with a sibling of a good friend?
** No. And I wouldn’t want that to happen. Not in a million years probably.

27. Tell us about the last thing that you did that you truly regret.
** I trusted too much.

28. When did you laugh today?
** When DS asked me, “Mommy, are we going to stay here at the hotel forever?”

29. Do you trust easily?
** Yes.

30. What do you care about that you wish more people would?
** Compassion for those who are less-fortunate.

31. Is it easier for you to go without food or go without sleep?
** Without food.

32. What non-alcohol beverage do you enjoy drinking the most?
** Water.

33. When you walk into a room full of strangers, generally how is your confidence?
** I’m fine with it.

34. Does talking about sex with anyone but your lover make you uncomfortable?
** No.

35. Do you tend to believe members of the opposite sex mostly behave the same way?
** In certain aspects, yes.

36. Did you drink any alcohol this week? If yes, what?
** No. I’m detoxifying my body from 2 straight weekends of alcohol binging.

37. Would you ever consider being a vegetarian?
** I don’t think I can do it.

38. Do you believe that there’s always room in your heart for someone?
** Of course, I do.

39. Do you believe in the concept of soul mates?
** Yes.

40. Last week, we had a few players criticize our victim’s question. Which is fine to do and we value your opinion. Would you ever consider writing questions for Bud and me to post on a Sunday Stealing?
** I’m fine with the way things are here unless you’re gonna give away onecall coupons for free. LOL!

The "Surprise"

There she was, sitting on her Lazy Boy when we woke up this morning. We knew she arrived last Thursday. My brother sent a text message to my Dad that same day to tell us that she was coming. It didn’t really come as a surprise because she’s used to doing those things even before.

We did go to the airport even if it was late and I have an early morning shift the next day. But found out that my other half brother was already there to pick her up. We didn’t bother to pick her up anymore.

It’s been months since I last spoke to my Mom. There was so much tension between us. Papa left early for his teaching stint so I was there to handle her all on my own. It didn’t turn out good. We talked for 3 hours without any resolution. And then I went back to bed and slept.

I woke up in the afternoon and the bickering started again. I decided to just go out and meet my Dad to talk. We decided not to sleep at home for the night to give the bickering some rest.

As I write this note from the hotel’s cyber room, a lot of things are running through my mind right now. It’s highly-likely that there will be a repeat of what happened in Christmas of 2006 where we moved out. I can feel it coming, unfortunately.

I pray for guidance and enlightenment. And that’s what all I can do for now.

Saturday 9: Little Miss Can’t Be Wrong

1. Who was the last person you dealt with that felt that they could never be wrong?
** An ex-friend of mine.

2. Tell us about one person who is the most like you.
** I can’t really tell if there’s someone like me. But

3. What is something you really want right now?
** Financial stability.

4. What are you doing this weekend?
** It depends on what’s gonna happen since we have an “unexpected visitor” in town.

5. Are you in a good mood? If yes, Why?
** Not really.

6. Do you have an ex that you are pretty sure thinks about you a lot?
** I don’t know. It’s better that any of them won’t be doing that anymore.

7. What’s one thing you wish you could do but can’t?
** Get away and never go back.

8. What’s one trait you hate in a person?
** Backstabbing

9. What’s one thing you like to do alone?
** Read or be on the computer.

Friday Fill-Ins #191

1. You do your thing; I do mine and sometimes we can do our thing together. LOL!

2. If I’m gonna survive the night shift after more than 2 years of being on a regular day shift is what’s been on my mind on and off all day.

3. Remember when mobile phones and the internet are just mere luxuries in life?

4. Gadgets, shoes and nice paper to write on are three of my favorite obsessions 🙂

5. During the last year I’ve been constantly paying off my debts and now I’m almost done. Probably one more year of that then I’m debt-free.

6. My son always puts a smile on my face.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I’m looking forward to some chill time, tomorrow my plans include staying home to fix some stuff and Sunday, I want to have lunch out with the family!

Wednesday Wickedness: Angelina Jolie

1. “All women do have a different sense of sexuality, or sense of fun, or sense of like what’s sexy or cool or tough.” What do you do to feel sexy?
** I think that I’m sexy and I wear my favorite lingerie items or underwear.

2. “I don’t think the money people in Hollywood have ever thought I was normal, but I am dedicated to my work and that’s what counts.” Do you think people think you are normal?
** I do believe that I’m normal but probably some people think otherwise. Actually, it’s a normal thing if some people think that you’re not normal.

3. “If you ask people what they’ve always wanted to do, most people haven’t done it. That breaks my heart.” What have you always wanted to do?
** I’ve always wanted to set up a foundation for the homeless and to provide education for people who can’t afford to go to school.

4. “There’s something about death that is comforting. The thought that you could die tomorrow frees you to appreciate your life now.” What do you appreciate the most about your life at this time?
** I appreciate the support system I have in my friends and certain family members. I have ran into some problems recently and they have always been there to support me all throughout the ordeals. I will forever be grateful to them for standing by my side during those difficult times.

5. “Where ever I am I always find myself looking out the window wishing I was somewhere else.” If you could be somewhere else, where would you be and why?
** I would like to be in Canada. It’s always been my dream to settle there with my kid.

6. “I need more sex, OK? Before I die I wanna taste everyone in the world.” Have you ever felt that you need more sex to be happier?
** To be honest, there were times. But it’s never going to be the be all and end all of everything.

7. “If I make a fool of myself, who cares? I’m not frightened by anyone’s perception of me.” Have you ever made a fool of yourself? If yes, spill.
** Hmmm…yeah. But that’s all in the past. I’d rather not spill it for now.

8. “I don’t believe in guilt, I believe in living on impulse as long as you never intentionally hurt another person, and don’t judge people in your life. I think you should live completely free.” How often do you feel guilty?
** Not so much because I know that for as long as I’m not doing anything bad and I’m not hurting anyone intentionally, there’s no need to be guilty.

9. “I never like being touched, ever. People used to say I held my breath when they were hugging me. I still do.” Are you ever uncomfortable being touched?
** Sometimes. I guess it depends on the people who touch you. There are those that you’re not comfortable with and yet you have to be touchy with them. I stay away from them as much as possible.

10. “Oh, God, I struggle with low self-esteem all the time! I think everyone does. I have so much wrong with me, it’s unbelievable!” Give us an example of what you’ve done when feeling low self-esteem.
** I’m an emotional eater. So I eat when I feel low.

Meet Nina

A friend of mine told me about this new series that debuted 2 weeks ago on Australia’s Channel 10.

Meet Dr. Nina Proudman, a divorced n OB-Gyne, who is part of a what I’ll term as a dysfunctional family. The series deals with a variety of individual and familial issues that any one of us could relate to in more ways than one. She was married to an explosives expert blows up Nina’s things to show how much he loves her. More information about the series can be found here.

One more thing about this series is Don Hany. He plays the role of Dr. Chris Havel, the pediatrician who’s the object of Nina’s fantasy. Well, if your pedia’s this hot, why wouldn’t you fantasize, right? LOL!

Aside from these 2, wait ’til you get to meet Billie, Nina’s sister; Jimmy, Nina’s brother; Darcy, her Dad; Geraldine, her Mum; Mick, Billie’s boyfriend; and Cherie, who plays an important role in giving a twist in the already complicated life of the Proudman family.

I am definitely looking forward to the upcoming episodes.

(Photos courtesy of TV.com)

Something Different

What do you do when suddenly your life takes a 360-degree turn and you’re not even prepared for it?

Enjoy the moment!

Yes…enjoy the moment! At some point in our lives, this kind of experience will come along and it should be cherished.

Who would have thought that there are certain connections that don’t get lost despite absence and distance? That these lost connections with certain people probably deserve another chance to be nurtured? That maybe given the chance, things may turn out to be a little different the next time?

The unexpected scares us because we are put in a position of uncertainty. Yet this uncertainty gives us this unexplainable thrill that you might discover something good and something that you can probably look forward to. Whatever the result may be, it is something to be happy about and be cherished. And definitely it’s something you can look back at with a smile.

Surreal? It is. More like surreal but nice.