A burial on a scorching hot summer’s day…
Crawling traffic that tested my patience…
Capped the night with you through a talk over coffee and burgers…
Little things that made all of the bad things of today seemed trivial.
Little things that are priceless.
I didn’t need anything fancy. To see you and be with you were enough.
The simple dinner…the talk over coffee to cap the night…these just made the day all the more special.
I’ve never felt this appreciated in my life for the longest time.
All of these were more than enough to celebrate a momentous first month in my life’s new chapter with you.
I am just so thankful for the gift of you.
A good read that’s worth sharing to everyone:
“The secret to a good relationship is the ability to tolerate differences and embrace imperfections. The most compatible couples have great levels of patience and tolerance for each other. They strengthen their relationship by holding on to each other in worst circumstances. Although they disagree on various things they have an amazing understanding for each other. They face all their problems together and they are there for each other no matter what life throws at them. They just want to be together even though they have seen the absolute worst in each other. They don’t want to give up on each other even though they have put each other through hell. It is the wisdom, maturity, understanding, commitment and unconditional love that make a relationship work and last forever.”
If it came across that I wanted to cover up for that part of my life that I disclosed, that was never my intention and will never be. I just needed time. But I guess there will never ever be good timing for things like that.
No matter how hard I tried to protect myself from being hurt, I was. Not because of the words you said, but because I saw disappointment and uncertainty in your eyes. I knew I screwed up. Those were things that I didn’t want to see in you.
It was a very painful moment knowing that right there and then you would walk away and that would be the last time I am going to see the person I have always dreamed of having in my life.
I shielded myself from judgment from anyone, including you. It’s because not everyone will be able to understand that part of my past that I was never happy about and proud of.
Right there and then, a barrage of thoughts raced through my mind.
I got scared. And at that moment I had to be prepared.
I had to prepare myself for the worst. I had to prepare to let you go right that very moment.
But you turned things around.
And I knew right that moment that the revelation would change my life forever.
One of those rare moments when I camwhored with my most favorite guy in the world.ü
Every word you said, every gesture you did all sounded and looked beautiful to me. I have never looked at a person so lovingly as I did today.
Don’t ever think that I was making a mock out of you. They were these parts of you I’ve been longing to see.
Thank you for making me realize the fact that you missed me and how I missed out on that one. It crushed my heart to know that from someone I’ve hurt. I am very sorry for my misgiving. And I can only hope that I will be forgiven for that.
Thank you for making me realize how God has blessed me so much to have a quirky but loving kind of guy in you.