Patience

A virtue I have been able to practice religiously…

But some recent events have made me go into prayer for more.

And I keep telling myself, “Just a few more days and everything will be all right!”

And I just hope and pray that it will be so.

Holiday Date

It wasn’t our usual Sunday.  Since it’s a holiday today, we decided to have coffee and then went on with that unplanned movie date with Tom Hanks last night.  We wouldn’t have to worry about working on a Monday.

Random plans, they just work.  At least I know they do.

And after capping our date night with another round of coffee before heading home, I know that it will be one of those Sundays I would always remember.

Thank you for making my holiday weekend another one for the books.

Double Celebration

It’s been years since our last double celebration.  Too bad, my partner was not with us because he was under the weather after that out of town business trip.  We just had a simple one with the closest friends in the circle last night.  We’ve all aged but our relationships with each other have not changed a single bit.  If it did, we just became closer.

Happy birthday again to me and my brother.  Thank you for the gifts of friendship and family.

An Open Letter to a Birthday Boy

Dearest Gian,

Thank you for making my life more liveable.  Thank you for being the brother who’s always there to protect me no matter what.  We do not always connect the way we should as siblings but know that I will always be here for you no matter what.

On your 28th birthday, I only wish

… That you may be the best father you can be to Cai and Timmy.  May you be their pillar of strength just like how Papa is to all of us.

… That you will be able to pursue your dreams and be happy about the results.

… That you continue to be strong-willed, faithful, loyal and loving to your partner.

… That you will always be happy with the decisions you make in your life.

Know that I will always be there for you no matter what.

Happy birthday!

The Day After

I don’t like it when people leave.  Not that I have separation anxiety but somehow, it makes me uneasy knowing that one is far away and I feel like my comfort zone’s nowhere to be found.

I know it will only be just a couple of days.  You will be back soon.

Safe travels, my dearest!  Be home soon!

Birthday Wish Came True

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For the first time in years, I celebrated my birthday with a really huge smile on my face despite the adversities I’m facing.

I’d like to express my sincerest gratitude to everyone who remembered me on this special day.  I may not have replied right away to phone calls, text messages and other forms of greetings but definitely, I appreciate all of them and will try to acknowledge them soon.

To Papa, thank you for starting my day right with that early morning phone call and of course the birthday gift you gave me. 

To my friends and colleagues at work, thank you for the birthday cake and cupcake ü

To all my family members who remembered, it’s always nice hearing from you.

To my closest friends, here and abroad, for never failing to remember me on this special day every single year, thank you for the text messages, phone calls and e-mails.

And to my loving partner who fulfilled my birthday wish, thank you for making my birthday extra special.  Who would’ve thought that birthday wishes really do come true?ü

I have really been truly blessed this year.  And as the rains poured, like it does every single year on my birthday, thank you, Lord, for another year and praying for more blessings along the way.

Special thanks to my good friend, Chelo, for the photo above.  It was one of the cutest gifts I’ve ever received.

Another Week Has Passed

… For a long drive that I have been missing out on

… For 7 months of togetherness celebrated over an unscheduled sumptuous Japanese lunch buffet last Tuesday

… For a phone call that made my day

… For some time spent alone

… For people who made me realize that bad things are not permanent

… For feel-good movies

… For some catch-up time with my best friend over on Facebook

… For the smiles and laughter from people closest to my heart

… For another week of blessings that came in all forms

It was a hodge-podge of good and not-so-good things this week but I’m still grateful.  Thank God for another week that passed.  Everything is still good after all.

And with that said, I just would like to share something really apt for the moment.

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Plans

When I was younger, I had all of these plans written on a notebook full of my ideas and thoughts.  My father told me that I should have a timetable for everything so as not to waste time.  At 20, I had my mind set that I have already graduated from college by then, start on law school afterwards while taking on a job that I will love for as long as it takes.  At 25, I am already a lawyer, get into a law firm or start one of my own.  At 26, get married, have children and start a family.  At 30, I already have a secured and settled future for my family – a house I could call my own, savings for rainy days, for vacations and my child/ren’s education.  At 35, I will just be travelling to places with my family.  At 40, I will retire from corporate law practice and just concentrate on my husband and family.  And at 45, I have already settled with my family to a country of our choice where we can enjoy the perks of more than 20 years of hard work.

I faltered along the way.  My laid out plans did not materialize.  I did not stick to my timetable.

It didn’t turn out the way I mapped and planned out my life.  I did graduate but have yet to take the board exams.  I went to law school but I haven’t finished it yet.  I had long-term relationships, most of them ended up badly.  I was blessed with a wonderful son, but my marriage was a complete and total failure.  I travelled but only because my parents were there to finance most of those trips.  I have yet to find that job that will secure my future and that of my precious one.  At my age, I’m nowhere near being financially stable.  I haven’t laid out a good and final set of priorities that would get my anywhere near my aim of having a fulfilled life.  These are but some of the things that happened for failing to stick to my timeline and because I made decisions that changed the way everything is in my life.

Tonight, I talked about a plan that did not work out.  A plan that I kept to myself only because it was a secret and a surprise for someone special in my life, and with the notion that maybe if I didn’t talk about it, it would happen.  I know it was not taken lightly and was probably in bad light from his perspective.  I was wrong for withholding information and I knew I hurt you that way.  I am just glad we didn’t dwell too much on it.  But the point was that, I should have said something about it.  Sorry for being selfish.

Although it was said that you alone have the power to make plans happen, there are things that may and will happen that will stop these plans from materializing.  In my experience, the more I plan, the more that things don’t happen the way I want them to happen.  Sad but true in my case.

However, I still don’t regret being where I am right now despite all the failed planning I did in my life.  There are still so many beautiful things that happened in my life that I would not exchange for those plans that were botched due to wrong decisions or fate having interfered along the way.  I have learned about life and I know that I can survive whatever comes my way, with or without any plans.  You, coming into my life, was not planned at all and it is one of those beautiful and unplanned things that happened.  I am very grateful for that unplanned thing in my life.

So plans?  I still have them.  It’s always nice to have them handy, for who knows?  These plans might just eventually happen.  It serves as my guide as to what I should look forward to and all the more gives me a reason to do the things that I have to do.  And yes, you are now part of those plans.  I just wish and I am hopeful that I am now part of your plans too.

Amusingly Funny

While talking about this new segment on a noon time show, my loving partner said something about LGBT.

“I thought LGBT stood for Lesbian, Gay, Bakla (gay in Filipino), Tomboy!”

That truly cracked me up big time!  Of course, he now knows what the acronym really meant.

I just so love my partner’s sense of humor.

Thank you for making me laugh, Honey!  You just don’t know how that made my day.