It was a tumultuous end to something that should have ended a long time ago. Jobless, broke, emotionally wrecked, and mentally hurt, I veered away from family and friends. I opted to be alone and drowned myself in sorrow for something that I’m fully responsible for. I wasn’t hurting because it ended. I was wrecked because I allowed myself to be that. I had the choice not to. I lost myself once again in that process. But as always, I picked up the pieces of my broken self in solitude. Then my friends and family came to my rescue. I wasn’t expecting it after disregarding them. But there they were. They helped me through it all. I could only be grateful. I have the best set of friends and family in the world no matter how twisted they could be sometimes. I bounced back from a very bad decision. I started all over again.
An unexpected turn of events led me to meet this person who made me see the silver lining to all the bad things that happened to me before. It was a serendipitous moment for me. Something that happened at the right place and time. Something I will never regret. Something that I will always look back with a huge smile on my face.
My family was so excited to have finally met you. For the first time in years, I have never seen that kind of acceptance towards the previous and relevant men in my life. I know that they loved you the first time they saw you and got to talk to you, especially my Dad. That made me really very happy.
My father celebrated his 80th birthday. Nowadays, who would reach that age with the kind of lifestyle that most people have?
I started on a new job that challenged my skills and capabilities. I would like to believe that I gave it my all. I gave it my best shot. I made new friends. But I guess, you can’t please everyone. Somehow, somewhere while you’re doing your job, there will always be people who will pull you down instead of helping out. I learned even more and discovered my resiliency. There are just people in this world who will be out to destroy you no matter how good you are doing. With that, I learned about self-preservation and self-respect.
In between his out of town trips and our arguments, I realized how patient I could be. How humbling these experiences were for me. How loving one person can make a great difference in your life. And how much you are willing to take just to show how much love you have for each other. Loving someone is bitter sweet. But it’s all worth it. And I will never get tired of saying that you are worth it.
My 38th birthday was made special by your presence and that of my family and friends. I would have to say that it was one of the best birthdays I’ve ever had.
My Sweetheart turned 10 and I am still overwhelmed and in awe that 10 years went by just like that. My miracle baby is a young man now. I can only wish and pray that he will be the man that I envision him to be. That he will never forget the things I’ve been telling him and learn the lessons presented to him as early as now. In my eyes, he will always be my little man. Even if he’s all grown up!
The last of my grandmother’s generation passed unexpectedly shortly before Christmas. At 99, I guess the Lord has already figured that her time’s up. It was more like a reason to celebrate as she is already in God’s loving arms. Her death has opened my eyes to the fact that I’m getting older and so are the rest of my family. Sometimes, though we fear it, we have to be prepared for death. We will eventually get there in God’s own perfect time.
As I have refrained from drawing up resolutions that just get stuck as plans on paper, I will just continue doing what is best so I could be a much better person in the years to come. Resolutions never worked for me. So I’ll prefer to keep it that way. My bucket list is still there for me to complete and I hope that I will be able to tick off more from that list this year than in the previous years.
I will never forget all the goodness, kindness, love and care that the best people in my life have shown me this year and all the past years.
And as I write the last couple of sentences of this post, I still can’t believe that another twelve months passed by just like that. It has been a very good year for me despite the ups and downs my family and I encountered collectively and individually. Personally, and although I am closing the year with uncertainty on some aspects in my life, I am glad that all of these things happened. I will always be grateful to the gift of people and things that were given to me this year. And I just want him to know that he is, by far, the best gift I received this year.
Just like what a good friend has been telling me, there is always a reason to celebrate. Be thankful and celebrate the reasons that you have.
As I travel the roads of the city tonight, I am thankful for whatever these reasons to look forward to in the coming year.
Happy New Year everyone! Be safe!