You probably didn’t know how much you made me smile when I got these from you. For the longest time, you actually didn’t know how much I love white roses more than the red ones.
And for the past 4 birthdays I’ve had with you around, this was the first time that I did not cry out of sadness and/or frustration. They were tears of joy, this time, courtesy of the people who love me and you.
You just don’t know how much you made this year’s birthday extra special.
And I thank you for that.
The week before today has been full of challenges and minor mishaps that got me to decide to just go on an unplanned and spontaneous 4-day weekend for the big day.
From an invitation to be on the front seat at Regine’s 30th anniversary concert, friends planning to take me to Tagaytay to welcome my big day, to dinner/coffee treat invitations left and right – all of which I politely declined. I am sorry that I gave my loving friends a bit of a headache. Hahaha!
But you see, you guys won, as the universe still conspired with you guys to make sure that you’ll pull off your plans for me. Ang galing nyo talaga!! Pinabilib nyo ‘ko! Hehehe!
Thank you for the unexpected and happy tears I shed. And I’m letting the whole world know how much I super duper appreciate all the efforts made to lure me to go out and make sure that today does not go uncelebrated. No words could describe how grateful and blessed I am to have all of you in my life.
Thank you for all the love given to me today from my family and friends; and to Him for some of the wishes and prayers granted!!!
The other day, my car got rear-ended in traffic. I let it pass knowing that I’ll have to go through another hassle of having these unruly drivers pay for damages.
Today, I almost got hit by a car while crossing the pedestrian lane in one of the busy streets in the business district. I created a bit of a scene and then walked to where I was supposed to go.
Three days into my birthday, I’m kinda broke and all of these shitty things happen.
It’s not because I’m alone. I’m used to having the bed all to myself.
It’s not because of the bed weather. I’m always looking forward to sleeping through the night with it.
Rainy nights remind me so much of you. A lot of the good and not-so-good memories of you had something to do with nights like tonight.
I miss you and the rainy nights with you.
“… Kung nasabi mong may nagkulang, ibig sabihin ika’y nagbilang… dahil kung ika’y tunay na nagmahal, hindi ka aasang iyon din ang ibibigay sa ‘yong kapalit.”
– Nanay Baby
It’s what you needed. And I’ve been wanting to give you one for the longest time.
It felt great having given one to you tonight. And I hope the hug comforted you and you felt loved.
If I could only give you more, I would do so. I just have to be more courageous next time.